"Your issues are part of midlife"
That's what my supervisor told me. I do volunteer work on pastoral care and we have these supervision sessions. During these sessions, we discuss cases and how our personal state affected the case.
In every interaction, we bring part of ourselves. Nurses may be careful but edgy because of a problem. Therapists may be overly zealous after receiving good news. Even pastors may bring personal biases when they give their talks at the pulpit. People like me who work in the caring and helping profession simply have to be watchful.
Watchful. Great word. I have been watchful. In fact I have been watching the world more than being in it. Wallflowring is a pretty easy sport to practice but it can get boring sooner or later. There will come a point in life when you will realise that nothing really happens on the sidelines.
That time usually comes when you experience the so-called midlife crisis. That's when you start to look back to see what you've accomplished so far and try to take a peek at the future to see where you're going. Mind, I have accomplished a few things in my life but not the "great" things that I would have wanted.
It's time to cross out items on my bucket list.
Come to think of it, I never got around to making that bucket list. All I have are declarations of the things that I wanted to happen in my life. Somehow, committing these things to paper makes you commit to them as well.
So Item#1 on my bucket list: Complete the list of 100 things I will do before I die.
